- Mood:awesome
- Location:home sweet home
- Mood:
tired
Hung out at Megan's lastnight with her and some of her friends. It was like non stop laughing. Her new place is amazing! She lives in OB on the top of a hill and has this incredible view of the city and seaworld, and beach. Its awesome. She is so lucky to be able to wake up and look out at that everyday.
I am officially half way done with my english 249 class. 4 more weeks and I'll be finished! It feels good cause I havent completed a single college course since USD when I was 19 years old. I also registered for fall. Taking 2 classes to fill general ed. Astronomy and Chicano studies. I spent hours going through all my different options and researching the professors on ratemyprofessor.com, and these guys have rave reviews, so even though they are blah subjects to me I'm excited because of all the hype around what great professors they are.
So Sunday I had a bit of a delema. I was under the hood of my car trying to pop the air filter cover back on, and I was bent over and moved the wrong way and felt a sudden pop in my lower back, in the spine. I had never felt anything like that in my life. Like I literally felt something dislodge in my spinal cord. So anyways, it was outside of church, Es was in the backseat and I couldn't move! It hurt sooo fucken bad I could not move a muscle. I realized I couldn't drive myself to urgent care so my sister quickly came and picked me up. Then I kept going over the "pop" in my mind and it was seriously grossing me the fuck out. I was getting nauseated and light headed because that kind of stuff makes me queesy. I could only imagine if i ever broke a bone! OMG I would vomit on myself if I saw a protuding bone. Anyways in the waiting room, and they finally called me, and so my sister was going to take Es back home, and he got all scared and sad and gave me a hug. Afterwards my sister said he told her "Veronica I'm worried about my mommy and my heart is beating so fast!"
I was like awww my litttle man was scared for me. anyways they took xrays and all that and my back was ok, it was just sprained. he said the popping sound and feeling is not uncommon, that it also happens if you sprain an ankle.
I was really determined to get on a new work out regimin starting this week, but now I have to wait to be completely healed. I had a crazy workout last Saturday, ran 1.5 miles, did lotsof crunshes, squats and worked on arms.
ok well I gotta get back to work. I want this day to be ooovvver already. The plan is to take Es to the park after work, I brought my laptop so I can do some home work. ive been doing that a few times a week now. I'll take him and get work done while he runs around and plays, it's so relaxing I love it.
Oh and I havent seen Will in a week and a half, yay!
ok toodles
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"The rain to the wind said,
'You push and I'll pelt.'
They so smote the garden bed
That the flowers actually knelt,
And lay lodged--though not dead.
I know how the flowers felt."
-Robert Frost
- Location:work
- Mood: sleepy
- Music:tore my heart- Oona
"When I look back on the Bush years, I think of the lies. There were so many. Lies about the war and lies to cover up the lies about the war. Lies about torture and surveillance. Lies about Valerie Plame. Vice President Dick Cheney's lies, criminally prosecutable but for his chief of staff Scooter Libby's lies. I also think about the extraordinary and fundamentally cancerous expansion of executive power that led to violations of our laws and our principles." -- Dan Froomkin, in his final column for the Washington Post.
A great frustration I had during the campaign was when the McCain staff wouldn't carve out time for me to go for a run." -- Alaska Gov. Sarah Palin,
The U.S. has the most bureaucratic health care system in the world. More than 31 percent of every dollar spent on health care in the U.S. goes to paperwork, overhead, CEO salaries, profits, etc. The provincial single-payer system in Canada operates with just a 1 percent overhead. Think about it. It is not necessary to spend a huge amount of money to decide who gets care and who doesn't when everybody is covered. Rhonda Hackett 6/07/09
"He had taken almost everything. But he had been all I'd had, all this time. And when the police led him away, I pulled out of the hands of all these loved ones, sobbing, screaming, everything hurting to try and make him stay."
- Sarah Dessen, Dreamland
“Never give in--never, never, never, never, in nothing great or small, large or petty, never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never yield to force; never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy.”-Sir Winston Churchill
- Location:work. ugh
- Mood: groggy
I wanna learn something I didn't know
I wanna say "yes" at the end, because I'm sick of saying "so?"
I wanna hear a poem about who you are
And what you think
And why you slam
Not a poem about me and my poem
Because I know who I am
I wanna hear a love poem
A sad poem
An "I hate my dad" poem
A dream poem
An "I'm not what I seem" poem
An "I need" poem
An "I also bleed" poem
An "I'm alone" poem
An "I can't find my home" poem
I just wanna hear a poem
I wanna hear a poem about revolution
About fists raised high
And hips twisting in a rumble like a rumba
I wanna follow the footsteps of Chè
And hear the truth about the days of CIA killed the mumba
I wanna hear a poem about struggle
So that when I open my mouth, I can step outside myself
I wanna listen to no less than the sounds of protest
In the factories where workers sweat and make Air Jordans and Pro-Keds because
If you wanna take shots at people
Target Phil Knight and Bill Gates
Contemplate how
They own the products
And they got the goods
How they act like they care
But they're just Robin Hoods
I wanna hear a poem where ideas kiss similes so deeply that metaphors get jealous
Where the subject matters so much that adjectives start holding pro-noun rallies at city hall
Because I wanna hear a poem that attacks the status quo
That attracts the clapse of the cats with the fattest flows
That makes the crowd pass the hat
And pack my cap with a stack of dough
I wanna hear a poem that makes this audience yell "hoooo!"
Because I wanna guess your favorite color
Then craft rhyme schemes out of thin air
I wanna hear a poem about why the statute of limitations for rape is only five years
I wanna hear a poem
I wanna feel a poem
I wanna taste a poem
Give me your spot on the mic if you wanna waste a poem
I wanna
Hear
A Poem
Steve Coleman, 1998 Slam Champion
- Mood:
working
Aside from the waves of sadness i had a good time. Our room at the Mirage was awesome. definitely my favorite hotel thus far, though I liked the pools at the Monte Carlo better.
There were 7 of us. We had 2 rooms. I shared mine with Jasmine & Jackie. It was Rosana's first time in Vegas and not even an hour had passed after we arrived and she was already drunk! I barely drank all weekend. Only got slightly buzzed Sunday and Monday night.
Monday we went to Jet, which is known for being THE place to go on a Monday. Also the club was right in our hotel so it was convenient. It was extremely crowded, but we all got in for free and danced all night. There were bumps along the road. Like my champagne being $18 bucks! For one glass! A guy came up and started talking to me and bought me a drink, and all of a sudden started talking all this nonsense. how he just "knew" that I was going to be his girlfriend. Then he made all these plans for "us" and was convinced i was going to his pool party in L.A this Saturday. I tried dancing with him but he got way too close and touchy feely and it annoyed the crap out of me. Shit just because I am in Vegas in a somewhat slutty dress does not mean I am the cliche vegas tramp. I DO NOT hook up when I go to vegas. Anyways so I started dancing with the girls and pretending to talk to them, as if we had some urgent matters to discuss. Apparently he was standing behind me watching me dance and scootch further and further away for quite some time before he left. I was so relieved and thought he was gone, but nope, about an hour or more latter he came back and told me "I left because you weren't paying attention to me". LOL frickin wierdo! Just cause he bought me a glass of champagne does not mean we are engaged or something! Shit. Oh and then he called my favorite music to dance to (hiphop) "Ghetto" and said he liked house music way better. And we all know I dont even consider house/techno real music. it is more like an audio nuisance and should be banned due to irrelevance.
Ok so after pyscho close encounters of the 3rd kind it was hours of dancing with the girls. The DJ was playing really good songs and the time flew by. We drifted into the other room. The main larger one that was massively over crowded. By the time we got back in there though it was already 3am so not as bad anymore. There is a platform for pole dancing and this one girl got up there and started to dance for her date. She was very clearly a stripper, cause that girl has some moves i aint ever seen! She was like sexing the pole. The guy she was dancing for kept texting or checking his phone and wasnt paying his undivided attention to her, which made her little dance even more pathetic and sad to me. She started grinding her butt in his face, doing the "butt clap" in his face, humping the pole like it was a vibrator, swinging her legs up, around, every which way and eventually landing in front of him and putting his face in her vagina. All this on the pole platform for everyone in the club to see. I mean I can understand trying to get freaky for your man, but that was basically a free show. Its like, dont you think you are worth more than that? Dont you see yourself as more than a sexual object? This guy was looking at his phone more all through her dance, what does that say about his interest in her? But hey thats vegas for you I guess. There's no rules in Vegas.
Rosana came with her sister, cousin and sisters friend carol. Carol is openly lesbian and is easily mistaken for a pretty boy because of what she wears and looks like. I had never met her before then but she seemed really nice. Apparently she made out with Rosana's sister, and the next night at Jet they were dancing together the entire time, and left early together. By the looks of it you would have thought carol was her boyfriend. Which was surprising to everyone because as far as we all knew Myra was completely straight.
Speaking of Rosana that girl is something else. She had 4 shots of petron on an empty stomach, then got dizzy, incomprehensible and sick. by 10 oclock we were all ready to go while she was barfing in a trash can. Most normal people would call it a night and go to sleep. I know I would have. Not Rosana though, she cleaned up, ate some pretzels and came with us, and stayed out the entire night like nothing had even happened. That girl can hang!
We did some sightseeing on Monday, visited several hotels and also the Secret Garden where we saw the dolphins and tigers and lions. Last August when we went there were baby Tiger cubs, and now they are all grown up! Such beautiful animals.
Sunday night Rosana had some drama with her family so she temporarily disowned them and came and stayed in our room. The next day they worked it out though... we lounged at the pool a lot, ate a lot, I lost 60 bucks on slots so I stopped gambling after that.. It was around the upper 80's and 90's so it was comfortable heat for Vegas standards. last August it was almos unbearable heat. The only thing I hate about Vegas is the open cigarrette smoking everywhere. The fumes are overwhelming and unescapable. Its so gross. I guess I am spoiled in san Diego where smoking is banned in like all public places..
anywho it was fun, and time flew by. We might go again perhaps near the end of the year..
ok well I gotta go. here are a few pics (click on for larger view). more later...
- Mood: sleepy
Tomorrow is Friday!!! I have so much to do these next two days..
anyways I just wanted to quickly share this poem because I was amazed by it...
Introduction to Poetry
I ask them to take a poem
and hold it up to the light
like a color slide
or press an ear against its hive.
I say drop a mouse into a poem
and watch him probe his way out,
or walk inside the poem's room
and feel the walls for a light switch.
I want them to waterski
across the surface of a poem
waving at the author's name on the shore.
But all they want to do
is tie the poem to a chair with rope
and torture a confession out of it.
They begin beating it with a hose
to find out what it really means.
Billy Collins
- Mood:sleepy & happy
ugh. somethings will never fucken change. He needs to grow the fuck up and stop acting like a 21 year old frat boy.
After telling him to kick rocks this second time, I immediately felt that sense of hapiness and control again, and was positive i did the right thing...
My class starts next Tuesday, I am very excited about that.. Also going to VEGAS in 11 days!! woot! It'll be me, jackie, rosana, myra and Nadia. We're staying at the Mirage. I'm oh so stoked, i get happy everytime i think about it. Planned it 3 months ago, and I can't believe how quickly it has come already!
ok well back to workity work..
- Mood: busy
- Music:my 91x morning show
it was so cute, he is always so randomly sweet like that. Are all little boys that way with their moms?
And the vocabulary he uses sometimes is crazy. Like he won't say "scared" he says "startled" instead. If I sneak up on him or something he'll say "gosh mommy you startled me!"
4 more days left of kindergarten!
ok well back to my guilty pleasure- The Real Housewives of New Jersey. I actually like almost all the girls. Usually on those housewives show they all annoy me but one...
ok well goodnight all
- Mood:
loved
The brain is so weird....
So I accomplished much this week. I did the community service thing on Tuesday, went to st. Vincent De Paul and served food for the homeless. I was surprised. I thought there would be more "bums" there. I go downtown on Saturday or Friday nights and see tons of dirty, forgotten, lost and disgruntled outcasts of society. They lay beside buildings wrapped up in their sleeping bags or blankets. Most likely deeply resenting all the loud, noisy and inconsiderate people passing through their makeshift bedrooms... I am no stranger to those sights, so when I did not see those kind of people coming to get the dinner i was surprised. These people were decently dressed, clean, and looked pretty composed. They all had name badges with bar codes to be scanned for their meals. So I assume they have to sign up for a rehabilition/integration program in order to participate. Anyways I was also surprised that they were thankful for volunteers, and got several "thank you's" from people and from some of the kitchen staff as well. After 3 hours my feet were killing me and I was getting flash backs to working at Longs for 9 hour shifts.. I suppose I take advantage of being able to sit at a desk all day.
I also finished the application to get my passport card. So I should have that sometime in July. And today I renewed my drivers lisence. They made me retake the test which was annoying. I already took the damn test, why should I have to take it again? I'm not elderly or decrepit.
Work was crazy today. Like head spinning crazy. So I welcome my weekend off with open arms! Not sure what to do this weekend. I need to get some groceries, and stuff, and figure out where I'm going to take Es.
Ok well this old lady needs to get to sleep.
- Mood: drained
Crazy Ass Seals!!
Society exists only as a mental concept in reality there are only individuals. - Oscar Wilde
It was in a foreign hotel’s bathtub,
I baptized myself in change.
And one by one I drowned all of the people I had been.
I emerged to find the parallels were fewer,
I was cleansed.
I looked in the mirror,
And someone new was there.
Bright Eyes
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - BOB MARLEY
"O innocent victims of Cupid,
Remember this terse little verse:
To let a fool kiss you is stupid,
To let a kiss fool you is worse."
E. Y. Harburg
So a judge ruled yesterday that the Childrens Pool in La Jolla must be rid of all seals, so the water is not contaminated and people can swim there again. They plan on using recorded loud dog barks and hosing the seals down with water, and having 2 policemen present round the clock. Estimated costs: $700,000 a year. Reason: so people can swim in this small little space, even though there is literally plenty of La Jolla shore to swim in all along the La Jolla coast plus miles and miles of San Diego coast to use. Why can't we just leave the seals alone? The space they occupy seriously, is sooo tiny. And they go there for a safe haven. Every year they have and nurse seal pups at this spot. Why is there this need to scare them off? Would any of us like it if someone came and kicked us out of our bed at night, and hosed us down with water??? Um NO! It's like we have already done so much damage to this planet, we have wiped out entire species and are continuing to wipe out even more. Why are we so ignorant and greedy? Leave the fuckin few feet of sand for the fuckin seals, and go a block up the coast to the cove or La Jolla Shores to swim. What in the fuck is wrong with people??! And I'm doing all this damn research online trying to find an activist group that is organizing a protest or something, and I cant find crap! I emailed a few organizations. Hopefully they give me some answers. I seriously want to do something, and not sit around pissed off and yelling about it. And I've already got a handful of people who said they would protest with me.
Also I have signed up to feed the homeless downtown. My first day will be next Tuesday. I'm going to try to do it at least once a week. Its like 3 hours. It will probably be too hard to do once a week once school starts, but I'll see. I wanted to start tonight, but their schedule was already full for tonight's dinner so that was kind of disappointing. I guess I'll run tonight, try to do at least 2 miles, half of it is up a big ass hill. The past 3 days my legs were too damn sore, but they feel good enough today to run again.
And Es only has about 2 more weeks of kindergarten left! I can't believe how insanely fast this school year went! He will be in 1st grade! Wow I am getting old. He's winning some type of award tomorrow morning. I'm not sure what its about, but I'll be there to watch him get it.
ok I'm starving. Food time!
- Mood:
hungry
So far I've got a beach clean up lined up for this Saturday morning. If I have Es that day I'll bring him too. The more I can expose him to that kind of stuff the better.
I'm also talking to this woman from Saint Vincent DePaul, which is a homeless shelter downtown. They need volunteers for help in the cafeteria when they feed the homeless. I've been going over my schedule with her to see when I would be able to help with that.
One thing I am very concerned and want to do more about is the pollution in our Ocean. In the pacific there is a GIANT swirl of garbage that is TWICE THE SIZE OF TEXAS! Some parts of it run 90 feet deep. Its disgusting and appalling, and there because of all the crap we throw out of cars, homes, on the ground, or that fly out of trash cans. All of that eventually finds its way down stream and lands in the ocean. Some parts have more garbage than marine life in them.
Its disgusting and as a whole we have got to stop. Birds, turtles, fish and other marine life are dying in record numbers because they eat our trash or get entangled in it. Why are we so cruel to this planet that has been nothing but good and nurturing to us? I don't get it. Anyways some of the things I am changing that any one can easily change (you all should do it) is no more plastic bags!! That is a major contributor to the problem!
"An estimated 500 billion to 1 trillion plastic bags are consumed worldwide each year. That's 1 million bags used per minute. And, according to the EPA, more than 380 billion of those are discarded in the U.S. Less than 1 percent of those are actually recycled. Instead, these bags will clog landfills, create litter, choke streams and harm marine wildlife, like whales, seals and sea turtles."
So I'm going to buy those reusable cloth bags from albertsons and use those, and the plastic bags that I do get I'm going to save and take the time to recycle them.
normally I don't bother to recycle junk mail, card board and paper, but 100 million trees are choppped down every year for junk mail, so i am definitely going to start separating absolutely everything and recycling it.
If i see trash on the street I'm going to pick it up and throw it away, instead of letting it sit there and be swept into our storm drains, and someday murder an innocent fish or bird.
baby steps. We can all pitch in to push towards a hopeful future for our children and grandchildren :)
- Music:panic switch- silversun pickups
- Mood:zombie
So I do. I care, I care about politics and get mad as fuck when you bring up Arnold shwartzfucker and the school budget cuts, because it directly affects me and the person I care about most in this world and thats my son. I care that something like 3000 youths die in Africa because of Malaria every single day, that we are destroying our planet so much that I fear my great grandchildren will not even have an Earth to live in, that so many billions and billions of American citizens resort to violence to solve a problem or get a point across. That there is so much we all could do if we would only gave a damn enough to act.
So I start thinking to myself, but what can I do?? I don't have loads of money to give to great causes, I have bills to pay and a child to support. What can a single person do to make a difference? A tiny little imprint towards some kindness to humanity? And I suddenly felt so ashamed. Ashamed that i am always too wrapped up in my own life, trying to keep up with my own schedule. I see the problems, I point the fingers, and yet I don't even donate an hour of my time towards community service. I mean hell I could read to the blind or some shit, right? Anything, anything to step outside of myself and my comfort zone.
So that is the new plan. To give my time to community service or good causes. I don't even know where to begin since it's not something I normally do, so I've got some researchin to get to. But I'm tired of being idle, standing back watching it all pass me by and not even attempting to help in any way.
- Mood:
contemplative
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- Mood:disgusted
Es- Mommy how old are you going to be when I'm grown up?
me- I dunno baby it depends. I am 20 years older than you, so when you are 10 I'm going to be 30, when you are 20 I'm going to be 40."
es- whoooooaaaaa! You're gon be FORTY!? You're skin is gonna be awwl wrinkly mommy.
me- "what!? No way. Skin doesn't wrinkle until you're like 60."
Es- "Noo cause my gramma has wrinkly skin and she's forty-nine!"
Lol, i was laughing so hard after he said that. I have no idea how old she really is. He is always asking everyone their ages so he is probably right.
Then later he said-
Es- mommy I want to go to heaven
me- of course you do baby, everyone wants to go to heaven.
es- No i want to go to heaven now, cause i want to see jesus cause I never knew what he looks like. I want to see what he looks like, and I want to hug Jesus mommy.
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Oh what a week this has been. I am child free tonight and going to go out and get drunk. I need to for the sake of my sanity...
- Location:work
- Mood:
blah
Anywho, thought this was interesting-
Top 5 Cities for Ozone Pollution
1. Pittsburgh-New Castle, PA
2. Fresno-Madera, CA
3. Bakersfield, CA
4. Los Angeles-Long Beach-Riverside, CA
5. Birmingham-Hoover-Cullman, AL
San Diego was number 13.
I was watching that CNN show Planet in Peril, where they go to remote parts of the world where major issues are happening that can eventually affect our way of life. The first one I saw was on Nigeria, and how it is one of the poorest places, and the quality of life is so incredibly horrible. It is one of the leading oil export places, exporting over 2.5 million barrels a day, but the people of the region see none of that money. It showed a Shell plant, where a week prior, an oil pipe had burst, and oil was running from it for TWO MONTHS!! Their rivers, lakes, and streams are so polluted that any life around them or in them have died. The village people have to walk miles and miles, trying to look for a body of water that is not so polluted with oil that all the fish are dead so they can try to fish and eat. It took Shell months to seal up their oil leak, and of course they did nothing to clean it up, or try to help the neighboring towns it had affected. Fuck Shell. I'm never buying their stupid gas again after I saw how they treat the people and land they take that oil from. And of course Shell declined to comment and refused to interview the CNN correspondent.
It was sickening. It really was.
Anyways work is so slow slow slow today. I busted my ass yesterday on all my end of month stuff, and now I have nothing to do :(
I want to hit the gym but I feel so damn drained today. i wish I had some gaurana pills with me.. ok back to work. toodles..
- Mood: tired
Saturday i went alone, swam a bit then laid out and fell asleep on the sand. Good thing I had sunblock on, otherwise i would have been a big lobster. Sunday i went with Alicia & her man, Jackie, and jackie's nephew. The waves and current were a bit crazy. I have never swam in the ocean and been scared of drowning before. Never. But it got to a point, that i was swimming and swimming and not moving! I was trying so hard to get back to shore and the water just wasn't letting me go in that direction. It was insane. So I think I will wait till it gets closer to summer months to snorkel. Aside from that, and us all freaking out in the ocean we had a good time. We spent most of the time laying in the sun talking and burying Jackie's 13 year old nephew in the sand and giving him giant sand boobs.
swimming in the ocean
Work has been hectic. Barb is out, so I've got her work load, plus my regular work load.. I can't keep up.. but on the plus side it makes my days go by in a blink of an eye.
Es was good again in school yesterday (that makes 6 days in a row!). he's got a Sea World field trip next week he's excited about. Tomorrow I'm taking him to the store for a new toy and gamecube game for his good behavior in school.
Ok well back to the grind. I've got quotes to finish and lunch to make. toodles...
- Location:work
- Mood: hungry
To top it off it's supposed to be in the 80's this weekend. Snorkel time!!
So my new goal is Costa Rica. My coworker is going there for an entire week. Lucky bastard. he's going to snorkel, white water rafting, go on the zip line through the Forrest and see a volcano. He said the last time he was there they saw an enormous turtle laying eggs in the sand. And that things are super cheap. His beer was like 50 cents. A flight would be $500-$600. I have to research the rest, but there are package deals for 4 nights for as low as $900.00.
I seriously want to save and go there, that is my new goal.
Anyways Happy Friday bitches. I'm going to the gym in a bit, then gonna see a movie later..
- Mood:
envious
Maybe you other mothers will know what I'm talking about.
Es has a problem with Poop. By "problem" I mean- why is it every single time we are in a store he has to poop? Always at the most inopportune moments! Examples- Sunday we were shopping at Longs and he had to poop, so I had to find a bathroom then stand around for 15 minutes waiting for him to finish. Last week when we were buying groceries at Henry's he had to poop, so what do I have to do? Find a bathroom and stand around like an idiot for 15 minutes waiting for him to finish. Before that it was Charolotte Russe in the mall. I had a huge armful of clothes to try on, and all of a sudden he had to poop. But since they did not have a bathroom I had to put the clothes away, walk to the other side of the damn mall to find a bathroom, then stand around and wait for him to poop. It took so long I took out my book from my purse and started reading. Honestly it's ridiculous!
And today even. Today he had a game at 5, that means I gotta leave work by 4:50. Jackie was late in dropping him off, so when he got to my work I said be quick and change cause we have to leave right now. So what does he do? he poops!!! I didn't leave my work cause of his poop until 5:20!! Then he pouted cause I told him we weren't going to his game anymore cause we were too late.
I can't even tell him to hold it cause I know he can't. The last time that happened we were in line in my car to cross the border. This takes like 2 hours ya know? And once your car is in the line there is no possible conceivable way to get out of it. We were seriously like only 30 minutes away from crossing, but what happened? he had to poop and because he couldn't hold it pooped on himself. What the hell was I supposed to do though? Tell him to get out of the car and poop on the street in front of all those cars? I was alone too so I couldn't get out and try to walk to a store and find a bathroom.
Long story short, my boy has a pooping problem and it's annoying!!! I can't wait until he's old enough to have a girlfriend I'm going to tell her all these stories :)
ok well I gotta make dinner and catch up on some American Idol... tah tah
- Mood: hungry
There is also this diet called the 2000 calorie diet. These old people were on it, and the first guy it showed, he is like 51 years old, but physically, doctors says he has the body and organs of a 20 year old athlete. Plus he hasn't had a cold in 7 years! Its not just his calorie intake that affects his good health, it's also what he eats. He eats EVERYTHING fresh, most of his foods are raw fruits and vegetables, and he only eats what will give him the most nutrional value with the least calories (example apple peels, not the whole apple). And because of this, doctors estimate that he will live to be 150 years old. By eating right and limiting calories scientist believe your body and cells run more efficient and it triggers a genetic switch that slows down the aging process. Then at one point they said something like, more people die from the affects of eating bad then they do by cancer, smoking and drugs...
So anyways it has made me a lot more conscience. So I have set a new rule for myself. Fast food only once a week. Everything else has to be made. Bread is to be whole grain only. I need to consume more healthy nuts like almonds and walnuts (this helps with cholesterol and heart health). I need to eat more fresh fruits.
So anyways this is what the daily food intake looks like-
Breakfast 8am- oatmeal (or cereal) 1 banana, and 1 toast slice(optional)
Snack (11am)- which is either a bagel, orange, or sliced cucumber, strawberries, apple, burrito. anything small really.
Lunch- Turkey sandwich or leftovers from previous nights dinner
predinner- snack on peanuts or yogurt. I have started to eat this parfait thing. I mix yogurt with walnuts, sliced blackberries and sliced strawberries, super healthy and full of antioxidants.
Dinner- which is usually either steak or chicken. on occasion I'll make carne asada or adobo. But for the most part it's steak and potatos, or chicken breast and rice.
Es also eats healthy. I pack his lunch for him and usually give him an egg sandwhich with tomatos, an orange or apple, crackers, fresh strawberries, and juice.
My problem is i really need some good new recipes. I get tired of making the same stuff every week. I'm making a rotisserie chicken this week. We'll see how that goes..I really want to find a good recipe for a chicken breast pasta... An Italian dish or something..I love making fresh lasagna but it takes so long!! Literally it takes hours. I have been craving it though, so maybe I'll make one next week.
So thats what I've been trying to stay consistent with lately. I mean just because I am not over-weight doesn't necessarily mean I am super healthy or my body is at the level it should and can be at. I want to get to the point that old man was at and go years without even getting a cold, because my immune system is so efficient.
Well Es has a game right now, but he decided he had to poo right when we had to leave. We're already 8 minutes late and he's still in the bathroom. i dont think I'm going to even take him now.
// ENGL 249 - INTRO TO CREATIVE WRITING (3.0 Units )
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06:00 PM-08:40 PM CITY TM7 DECASTRO, E
06-16 to 08-08
(8 Weeks) 30 OPEN
Description
ENGL 249 Introduction to Creative Writing
This is an introductory course in creative writing which focuses on the study of fiction and poetry. Students analyze technique in the works of professional writers and in their own original works. After submitting writing, students participate in informal discussion of their work, which includes helpful criticism from the class and the instructor. Increased writing skills help students prepare for careers in communication, education, writing, advertising, selling, journalism, law, business, and government. (FT). Associate Degree Credit & transfer to CSU and/or private colleges and universities. UC Transfer Course List. CAN ENGL 6 = ENGL 249 (City,Mesa,Miramar).
Ok thing is I don't know if I'll have time. I mean it's hard enough to work, go to the gym, make dinner, keep house clean, shower and get to bed at a decent hour... The difference is Es wont be in school so I wont have to worry about that. Plus it's at night so it's not like it will squeeze into my beach and snorkeling time.
2nd worry is that I havent gone to school in 6 years, let alone attended a 3 hour lecture. Will I even be able to do it? Have I lost the patience to attend school? I'm not worried about prerequisites cause I completed like 3 college English courses already..possibly even 4. None of them have been writing though, all only literature.
Well I'm gonna think on it more. I gotta take my lunch and go pick up Es from school. he has a game today.
toodles!
- Mood: busy
Ok, so went to the beach on Sunday, since it was in the upper 70's. Although La JOlla is my favorite, i went to Coronado cause it's just like 10 mins from my house. here is a clip from the new cam. The quality gets crappy after I upload it to youtube, but for some reason not so much when I upload it onto myspace. Maybe it is the magnitude of the videos youtube hast to host. Anyways here it is from myspace. hopefully it shows up here-
Me and Es in the water..
We had a blast, we also went to the park that day to fly his kite. Aside from that I didn't do much else. Will stayed over on Saturday and Sunday night. Yes I am drawn back in again. And yes I am completely annoyed by it.
Monday I took the day off of work so we could go to Disneyland for Es' 6th birthday. I was hoping by going on a Monday we would avoid the crowds. No such luck. It happened to be spring break for kids, so the place was packed. It was annoying, but besides that we had a lot of fun. Went on a few rides I hadn't been on before, and explored until our feet could handle no more (shortly after 9pm). I never got any sort of cool birthday like that, and it makes me happy that I'm able to give that to my son. I took a crap load of pictures. Here are just a few though.
ok well I'm not really in a writing mood. so I'm gonna get back to work.
- Mood: tired
In other news, I saw "The knowing" last night. It was a pretty awesome movie. I saw it late at night and didn't fall asleep through it! And thats saying a lot. lol
Also took Es to see Monsters vs. Aliens in 3d. The 3D part was pretty cool, but I don't think the movie was very good. I thought it was going to be funnier. More on par with Madagascar or something, but it wasn't really funny at all. I'd give it only 2 stars.
On Friday went with Monique and Jackie to our tattoo guy. I added a hummingbird (see below), Jackie got one on her arm fixed up, and Monique got the one on her back redone. He did a great job on all three.
Anyways I've got to check on my laundry, then I want to curl up and watch movies the rest of the night.
Tah tah
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- Mood:
annoyed
what the hell is wrong with cartoons nowadays!? I just passed by the TV, Es is watching Total Drama Island, and one of the girls, wearing a swim suit, got her bikini top ripped off! They blurred her cartoon boobs. but my gosh what the hell!?
anywho... went to Belo lastnight with Lani, Rosana, Liz, Saul, Nadia and Myra. Saul insisted Rosana park in front of the hotel he works at in the loading zone. which I didnt think was such a hot idea, but we left it and were off. Stopped mid way through a parking lot so the girls could throw down some shots of petron. But we ended up with a full bottle still left and no where to put it.. because of course as luck would have it, Belo is the only club that does full purse searches (I was even interogated about my birth control they found, and once was held up for a full 5 minutes while they inspected some guarana pills they found in there). Anyways we looked for a bush to throw it in so we could pick it up when we left, but there were no bushes on the downtown sidewalk, just sleeping bumbs, some fecal matter here and there and corners radiating with smells of stank urine... we finally found a shrub of grass on the side of a building, so we put the bottle under it and headed to the club.
Danced most of the night. The place was packed. we had to do lots of manuevering just to get through to the dance floor. I was dead sober. Unable to drink earlier because of stomach problems I was having earlier that day. I felt really awkward and out of my element at first. I felt like I couldnt even dance properly. Then I thought "oh my gosh I am sober at a club". After 15 minutes I felt good though. All the girls were having a blast. Myra appeared to be quite intoxicated so she was all over the dance floor, singing along with songs, gettin all into the music. Some "snap ya fingers" came on, Lani's head was bobbin and weavin, mouth moving to the lyrics. She does this dance thing, its hard to describe, but I quite like it. Kind of like when I watch a really good hyphy dancer- it's fucken awesome. Anywho, we rotated bewteen dancing rooms. One of them always smells like ass and armpits. I have a feeling it is because of a plumming or sewer line close by, since the club is underground.. Around midnight MIMS perfmored for a bit. 15 or 20 minutes. He was awesome!! I was not expecting to enjoy it as much as I did. But this really super creepy guy was weirding me out. We had a good position to see the performance, but of course the room was packed in like a can of sardines. So I got stuck next to jeepers creepers. He was with a girl, standing behind her with his arms around her waist, but I swear to Bob his eyes were fully glued to me the entire time. As in- his head was turned a full 180 degrees to his right. It was apparant he was blantantly staring and it was making me annoyed and uncomfortable. Then there was Liz, who turned 21 that day so was celebrating "big time" if you catch my drift.. well by this time she had had way too much to drink, and was at the point where her eye's werent even fully open, and she was swaying and dancing around so oblivious that she was repeatedly bumping and crashing into by standers. There were a lot of evil "ugh" looks thrown her way from the women, and some guys behind us had this classic look on their faces when she back bumped into them. It almost looked at if they had just seen a flying pink chicken or something, i wanted to say, 'what the fuck man? you never seen a drunk girl or what?! Get over it.' Of course it was too loud to actually say that, and I was too amused anyways..
Anyhow in the midst of all that i was very much enjoying the performance, and was dancing and singing along to some of his songs and whatnot... He left with his entourage once it was over, and we migrated back to the non smelly dance room. At one point a guy came up and started dancing behind me, I turned around to give him that "I don't think so buddy" look, but it was clear the point would not be taken with a look. This guy was beyond drunk. He was so drunk that even when he was trying to stand straight his upper body was swaying all over the place. At that point I just shuffled over to Rosana to dance with her and escape. he got the hint and stumbled off into the crowd..
When the club closed we started to walk back to the car. My stupid ass thought we parked close enough to walk, since the cab ride from the car seemed like only a few seconds long.. I was wrong though.. lol and we walked at least 8 blocks back to the car. We did however stop by the "shrub" to see if the petron was still there. It was moved over just a bit, like someone had seen it and thought about taking it, but then knew better than to take strange liquids (it also had the color of pee) from the street.. the same street that many many bumbs sleep, pee and shit on.. so Rosana got her bottle back, untouched and undrunk.
We finally got back to the car, and I drove since I was very much sober. But right as we all got in and buckled up Liz spewed half way on saul, halfway on Rosana's car door, and halfway on the street.. It was pretty gross, but at the same time kinda funny. Saul kept showing us his vomit soaked sleeve. 5 minutes and what sounded like a gallon of vomit falling on the pavement later, we buckled up yet again and set off home.
It was quite a night, but very fun. And I was surprised at how fun I had totally sober. I mean I'm no drunk don't get me wrong. But when I am at a club I drink. thats just what I do.
anywhoo... I've got to get going now. Es is still watching that nearly pornographic cartoon. I have to find a wholesome movie for him to watch.
tah tah!
- Mood:
content
Any ways... so this twitter thing is getting quite interesting, a lot of celebrities use it, my favorite is ashton kutcher. he says really insightful things. i have recently added demi Moore and P.Diddy. And I cant believe some of the crap PDiddy writes. A recent one was at 4am. It says something like- "it's 4 am. i can't sleep, I'm going to go run 4 miles then come home and make love."
I was like eeewwww i did not need to have a visual image of a sweaty P.diddy humping at 6am. no thank you.
anywho happy Friday all..back to work cause i am swaaaaammmped this morning.
- Mood: busy
So one of our vendors has a 42" LG plasma on sale in March for only $763.00. I really really want it!! After getting that 20" LCD for my bedroom I am in love with high def now. But I know I should not... my plan was to save everything extra because the economy is so bad and I'd feel safer to have a little tucked away....but man.... i waaannt it.. plus I am sure I can make payments at work over a span of 3-4 months... well we'll see. I'm gonna do some more thinkin
Not much on the home front besides battling myself and a past I am having trouble letting go of. Today is a good day though. I've been feeling great all day. Saw Taken last night with will. It was ok. A pretty entertaining movie, but a bit too far fetched and not very believable. It had a lot of "haha yeah right" moments.
Es has been a lot better in school. He wasn't a star student today but his teacher said his behavior was good he was just too loud and chatty.
My favorite band Tickle me Pink was going to play in San Diego tonight but they canceled cause Sean has bronchitis. Man. That just totally crushed my dreams. i was so extremely happy when I found out they were coming back to SD, waited 3 long months for March 4th to roll around, and what happens? The singer get bronchitis right before San Diego. I guess it wasn't meant to be. *sighs*
ok well I'm off. tah tah!
- Location:work
- Mood:
cold
So I bought 15 books today and only spent $16. I went to that place Book-Off again. I am so glad I found it. I will have to make a monthly visit there. But I don’t even have enough shelf space. I’ll probably go to Ikea again this week to buy more, or perhaps another bookshelf.. the problem is figuring out where to put it..
So since I have Es for the majority of the time now I take him everywhere with me, errands, shopping, the gym, etc… well I don’t like to take him shopping when I’m looking for clothes cause he gets emotional. For instance, he’ll browse the racks with me and pull out shirts or pants for me and say “what about this one mommy? This one is nice” and usually his selection is horrendous, because of course, he is a 5 year old boy. So I try to tell him no nicely. Something like I don’t like the color, or it’s too big.. but last night it really got out of hand. He was helping me find a purse, he kept picking the ugliest purses, and didn’t like any of the ones I picked. So in the end when I got the one I wanted he got so upset that he started to cry. I also vetoed some of the shirts he picked so that made matters worse. He told me that he wished he lived with his daddy all the time not me. I know he didn’t mean it, so I didn’t get upset but then he said that he wished I lived all alone and had no family and no friends, and nobody to talk to and that I just lived all alone with a bunch of animals and cats. While his daddy had a whole bunch of family. I was thinking where is this coming from, and that is a really odd thing for a child to be thinking about right? I dunno…he got passed it by the time we left the store and was back to his normal self. It’s just crazy some of the things he comes up with as he gets older.
He’s been good all of this week in school. He missed 2 days because of a stomach bug, but the other 3 days that he went he was good. The teacher said she sees a significant improvement in his behavior. So that of course, was awesome news to me. I guess the reward program I set up is working.
- Mood: sleepy
So I started listening to their old album, Foiled. I havent listened to it in over a year. Since Will and I broke up. Almost all those songs have a memory I made with him at some point.. And in listening to them now, it is seriously making my heart hurt... I can feel it crushing with memories...making me feel things and remember things I had suffocated in the far corners of my mind for so long...I need to get passed this though so when I see them live I wont get all depressed or start bawling my eyes out. But it'll be a good thing, cause I'll be able to make new memories, good ones. Pegah is going too, it's going to be fun..
I finally got a real answer from the IRS today. i got lucky and didn't get a complete moron on the phone this time. They said because of the amounts I had owed, it has to go through all these extra cycles and transfers, and I won't see my refund until March. Thank you! All I wanted was a time frame and explanation. sheesh.
I picked the wrong day to wear a sweater. It has been cold for weeks now, but today it's hot as hell outside and here I am in my winter sweater....summer come back!!!! I need to start snorkeling again before i go crazyyyyyy...
So March is lookin like it just might be an awesome month. I have 2 concerts that month (Tickle me Pink & Blue October), plus a Vegas trip, plus Es starts T-Ball. woot! February can't end fast enough...
- Mood: chipper
So Es was a star student on Friday, thats TWO days in a row! yay! I was happy and relieved. I got sick on Friday though. Felt like shit all day at work. Was struggling just to stay there. My throat hurt, and had a headache all day, then my eyes started to feel hot, and whenever I feel like that I know I've got a fever. Anyways I took ibuprofen and that helped. I had barely no apetite though so I didn't eat much all day. Went home and went to sleep for a bit. Will came over after work. I wasn't supposed to see him till Valentines day but he said he missed me and wanted to see me. I told him it was ok, but warned him I was sick. We just layed in bed watching old Lost episodes until we fell asleep. It's funny cause he used to HATE that show. He had to sit through a couple of season 4 episodes with me about a month back and he got totally hooked. he rented all of season 1 and watched it, also all of Season 2, and now he is starting Season 3. He also tries to get Wednesdays off so he can come over and watch the new episode with me. lol. he such a Lost junkie now.
Anyhow, Valentines day didnt do much. Woke up feeling sick still, and my head was killing me. Made a big breakfast for me, Will and Es. By 1 I left the house to take Es to his grandma so she could take him to Jacob. Will went to work, so I did lots of laundry, then went to Ikea to look for shelves and other little things for the house. I got a bunch of stuff I needed then went to Lowe's to get a few plants and pots and potting soil. My house needs more green in it. I only brought 2 plants with me when I moved, 1 of them has died of some disease, the rest of my potted plants were stolen from my yard the week i was moving. Of course they were. That is Linda Vista for you.... anyways.. I also bought paint to paint my new shelves. got a deal on a mis-tint. Its like an egg shell kind of color... Traffic was horrendous everywhere i went. I was trying to figure out why it was so insane everywhere then i realized it was Valentines day and everyone was out. Leave it to me to forget it's valentines day and run arround in pajamas all day doing errands. Anyways finally made it home relieved to be away from that madness. I started painting my shelves, then I potted all my plants, and also painted a couple of my terra cotta pots. Was watching the American Idol episodes I had DVR'd earlier that week. Most of my favorites made it through so I was happy. I really love the oil driller guy. anyhow, when the paint dried I hung the shelves in my room, and put my books on them. I must say, it looks pretty awesome. i was very happy with all my hardwork, but man was I exhausted.
Anyhow, after Will finished work around 11 he came over. He is a server so he was pretty busy all night. He made over $200 in tips though. But shortly after he came over I passed out. He had wanted to take me out to a movie and lunch and all that, but in the end we didn't end up doing any of that, and in the end I felt like I barely even saw him all weekend.
So Sunday we had breakfast at a cafe in Hillcrest by my house. It was one I had been eyeing for months now so I'm gad i finally tried it. Afterwards he left to work, and I felt alone and sad and angry that i had seen him for the past 3 days but felt like I didn't. He texted me shortly after to which I completely ignored. i was angry... though part of me knew by ignoring that text he would call me drunk later that night. anyways Lani and i went to the mall. We shopped a bit then saw "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" talk about a long movie! sheesh! It was pretty good though. I enjoyed it. I was more in the mood for chick flick, but we missed the one we wanted to see.
I read a bit when I got home. Watch some Bill Maher on Larry King. I think Bill Maher is my new hero... went to sleep somewhat early cause my head was pounding... will woke me up close to 1am, and came over even though I told him not to...
I hear the rain falling outside. It makes me want to be at home in bed reading. But here i am. at work even though the phones arent ringing cause everyone is off today. After work I have to drive down south to pick up Es, then go home and make dinner. Do dishes. Get him ready for school tomorrow. The day aches with responsibility that I'd rather not look at.
ah well. back to work I guess. I really have got to organize my desk.
- Mood: drained
Newho... I am actually caught up on bills now. It feels nice. For the 1st time in as far back as I can remember my Sprint bill is currently zero dollars!!! I pay for both Jacob and my own and was paying on average of $200 a month.. sometimes more than that.. well finally all caught up, plus I changed our plan so it will be only $100 a month. I'm also caught up on cable/internet and gas & electric. So from here on out I should be able to actually start saving money. my savings account wont be at a perpetual zero... well thats the goal anyway.
Havent got my refund check yet. They say there is a delay. I wasted 30 minutes of my life today on the phone with the IRS, who told me absolutely nothing I didn't already know, and did not answer my question. argh. I am waiting for that money so I can get new tires and buy Blue October concert tickets and make a large payment on the TV I just bought... which I am in love with by the way. Its a Samsung HDTV LCD for my room. I get all these channels I never got before, and some in HD. I bought it from work so their letting me make payments on it..
I don't know what I was on yesterday but I had a whole bunch of energy. I did my nails after work, then got Es, then went to Costco to stock up on food, then came home and rearranged my entire bedroom, and cleaned and organized it. I was finally done and in bed after 11. Hopefully tonight I have some time to read my book. I'm falling behind..
well it's gym time here shortly. so laterz
- Mood: chipper
- Music:pink- sober
anyways I was soo happpy.. I was feeling blah all day, workj was insanely busy. I was tired of fucken customers, I was tired of everything. then I got my car back and said ok, if it really passes smog this time I'm goin out to celebrate! and it passed!!! I can register my car now! woot!
anywhhooooo I am slightly buzzed. es is with his grammaz... jackie and lani lane are here.. we'reg going to head to PB here in a minute. we were watching Dane Cook Vicious Cirlce, and drinking. I fucken love dane cook. he better watch out cause if I ever see him in real life I am going to attack him and jump on his face and lick his forehead. Then I'm going to smell him, kiss his feet and run away.
"I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rythm...."
- Location:careless whisper- george michael
- Mood:buzzed
I went to the DMV on Monday to get a registration extension because I have not fixed my car to pass smog yet. I have only not fixed it because I havent had the extra money to do so. It was due in October, and I had already gotten 1 extension. Well turns out they passed a new law which allows no extensions past 60 days anymore. Had I known this information I would have not spent money at Christmas and just fixed my car in December. But I thought I'd be able to get the etension and therefore fix my car after all the holidays pass. Anyways.. so I have to get that fixed this week before I get pulled over or towed. Vero is helping me, and Will has a friend too thats going to look at it. I am just anxious cause I want it resolved already.
So Es was a star student yesterday! Finally good in class. I made a big deal about it, and bought him ice cream. He was so happy that he was finally a star student. It was the 1 thing yesterday that brightened up my shitty day.
Had a decent workout, though not as good as usual because i was tired from crappy sleep the night before, plus it was so busy, and I had to wait around for machines to come open. I really have to figure out a time to go when it's not as busy..I love going on the weekends at night, it's practically empty.
anyhow. back to work..
- Music:apacolypto- I don't care
"This time, there are real-world consequences," said H.D. Palmer, a representative of the state Department of Finance. "Because we have not been able to get to a budget agreement, payments aren't going to be made."Meanwhile, lawmakers are set to return to the Capitol this week to resume work on the budget.Schwarzenegger has declared a fiscal emergency as California faces a $42 billion budget deficit through June 2010.
- Mood: working
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